Saying goodbye is hard to do

I realize it's been incredibly quiet around these parts, being that it's been almost 7 weeks since my last blog post. And I really miss blogging. A lot! But truth be told, I've sat down to write this post a minimum of 10 times. But every time I open the blog, and read the first few lines of my previous post, my heart breaks and I have to physically walk away.

You see, the day after my last post, where I wrote about how my dad was stable and slowly recovering, he passed away. And even though he had been very sick, and we had lived an incredibly emotional roller coaster ride for the prior 2 months, and some might even think we should have seen it coming, it hurt. Really, really bad.

And even though we thank God for the fact that we were told it would happen within 24 hours, giving us the opportunity to spend every second up until his last breath with him, it still hurts. And it seems surreal to not have him around to talk to and to hug and I miss him terribly!

But being that we have the most amazing matriarch in our family (and the support of exceptional family members and friends), we said our good byes, rallied together as a family, and organized the most beautiful Memorial Service in celebration of my Dad's life.

We all spoke about him and the impact he had in our lives and how much we love him. We laughed and we cried. We had a wonderful photo slide show. We had inspiring music. We had beautiful flowers. We all met back at my house, where we were surrounded by the most amazing friends and family anyone could ever ask for, and delicious food. And we will forever remember that day as a very happy one!

Anyway, the reason I'm writing about all of this is because I feel like once this is actually posted, I will be able to face the blog again and continue business "as usual", or something close to it anyway.

Daddy, I love you and I miss you and I think about you every single day!